December 11-20, 1854

2nd May1
When I remember all
The friends so linked together
I’ve seen around me fall,
Like leaves in wintry weather,
I feel like one who treads alone
Some banquet hall deserted;
Whose lights are fled, Whos garlens dead.
And all he departed.
Thus in the Chilly night

SHED Not A Tear2
Shed not a tear o’er your friend’s early bier,
When I am gone, when I am gone
Smile if the slow-tolling bell you should hear,
When I am gone, I am gone.
Weep not for me, when you stand round my grave,
Think who had died his beloved to save.
Thinko f the crown all the ransomed shall have,
When I am gone, I am gone
Shed not a tear when Stand round my grave
When I am gone, I am gone.
Sing a sweet song unto who doth save,
When I am gone, I am gone
Sing to the lamb who in earth once was Slain,
Sing to the lamb who in heave doth reign,
Sing till the world shall be filled with his name----When I am gone. I am gone.

Plant ye a tree, which may wave over me,
When I am gone, When I am gone;
Sing ye a song if my grave you should see,
When I am gone, I am gone
Come, at the close of a bright summer’s day,
Come, When the sun sheds his last lingering ray,
Come and rejoice that thus passed away
When I am gone, I am gone.. “air long long ago”

Now that its near 2 o’clock I shall retire- smoke 3 segars since supper. Why do I sit up so late. O how many thoughts – only had I a dear and a near friend. That I could tell the ___?___ of my heart. And be happier.

In your last you have take it upon yourself to correct me. For which I return you my sincere and hearty thanks but not being aware at the time that I was addressing a lady of high literary attainment I deem it proper to offer an apology hoping to pay proper difference to the given of the west. Console yourself therefore with the reflection that the best err sometimes and this I know from experience. A friend is gold, if true will never leave thee Yes both, without a touch stone may deceive thee.

Monday December 12th 1853
Arose this morning at 6. commenced bording at Mr. E_?__ - very well pleased. Segar after breakfasted and supper Lorbet and Kinds faught today. I have felt rather disagreeable today unwell- was invited to spend wednesday evening at M. Makehead’s. Sent Miss Annie a not requesting the pleasure of her company. I walked out to Mr. Campbell’s about 7. Returned at half past 9. Have not studied any today.

Tuesday December 13th 1853
A beautiful day at noon bought 4 segars8 12 ½¢ and cousin Dave and I walked out beyond the crossroads. Near Mr. Campbell’s I put 5 Bullets in the large tree with my fine shootin- 30 steps hit the paper; good shot, saw kind Annie. Met her niece. Got some person to keep my firearms- this day. Lorbert and kinds. Saveage Unreadable
Lorbert and Kinds Left for home 10 - ___?__ . ___?___ a hand shake.

Modesty is9 more becoming and always esteemed. More valuable than beauty. Beauty perishes but modesty real modesty never decays

Wednesday, Decmber 14th 1853~

Another beautiful day, Had pudding for dinner10 10 cents Nelsa . (?) Returned the books. Was in ___?__ until ½ pase 3 o’clock. Cousin Dave and I were out riding. I left Carlisle for Mr. Campbells about 15 m of 5. did not get any supper. At 6 20 R_?__ and Neaggie Arrived and left for William Makeheads. The roads being in fine order our ride was grand! Solene(?) the moon shone down in all its brightness, giving all the light desired. we traveled with great rapidity. I was introduced to Mrs. William Makehead and a Miss Moore. Mrs. Makehead, Mr. Mueller and hease(?) – After different plays, we proceeded to partake freely if the refreshments we were ___?___. I felt a considerable pain in my stomach when I left the room, having eaten nothing since dinner. smoked segars. At 10 all went to the mill and everyone was weighed. Miss Agnus Stensel 141. me 146. by the by Miss Stansel was quite unfortunate. She tumbled down on the floor. Today. Boots and ___?___. The house is now, very nice. At 11 we all left and if we didn’t ride rapidly it was not because we did not try. Poor horses, had to be put through. I landed my sincere and kind friend. Arrived safe and sound Oh! How I enjoyed the ride. Splendid. I think Annie a sweet creature so honest and harmless, also graceful in her actions and conversations. I esteem her very highly. She is so amiable and always treats you so Kindly, her qualities are just such as I admire. At 12 10 we arrived at home by way of Carlisle on Turnpike. ___?__. was in the room some 35 minutes at 1. I was in Carlisle. I soon retired after entering my room. Miss Annie gave me some dream cake11 to dream upon. With _?_ 3 _?_. So has kept her the day and evening and a more pleasant turn around not her _?_ Horse and gugy hire $1.50
¼ in coal

Thursday, December 15 1853

Snow this morning at 7½. __?__ I was asked if I could not go to Philadelphia on Saturday. my old friend wanted me to see her safe to Williams, and as she has been so kind to me I consider kindness to obey her request although it does not meet my kind of approbation. I got permission of Prf Johnson to go. but since I have consider the matter I feel placed in a disagreeable situation. for I do not know what __?__ say a bout my __?__, __ing her away. And as she is not treated as she ought I stand and take what comes, good or bad. cousin came to Carlisle this evening. I was with him so __?__ in __?__ room. I was sorry to see him, in the state he was in. I though Mr. Hearsnow had more firmness about him. He was not intoxicated, but felt his brandy, for he said he had been drinking in Harrisburg. I can never think well of any person that back slides so often. When he left college he pretended to be a professor of religion. but what is he now. It’s my impression he will never make a man of great importance in the world. Bought a segar at Bunkhadldin 4 cents. 5 at Eby’s 12 ½ . Felling rather stupid and I concluded to take a walk about 7. I went taward Mr. Campbells. I in fact went in-which I ought not have done. for I did not feel any desire for conversation, and going in made me feel ashamed. I love to listen when I am gloomy, and say nothing myself. Came to my room ½ past 10. It’s now Just 12- and some 5 or 6 drunken, intoxicated students have been knocking glass out of the hall window. I saw them go down the steps, so drunk they could hardly walk. It would be a blessing if they were not at College= Goodnight And may I dream of, A.
1 o’clock a hard day

Friday, December 16 1853 L.S.12

A very gloomy day_ Did not arise until 7 ½ oclock. Soap 8¢. Called to see Dr. William Campbell. John R. Effinger Esq. mailed a letter to Father LS, Cold and damp tonight, sent a Bill of $257.00 to my father requesting a draft. __?__ 2.185, $157 due. Money comes and goes easy. my 30,000 _?_ dollars gives me annually 1800 dollars interest. I am not proud, nor do I dress fine= money dont trouble m, nor am I going to let any person know that I have plenty. If I can get a kind hearted wife. some of these days, I shall be happy, I only hope and desire to make some harmless creature happy. my money shall be hens My happiness her happiness. I dislike to hear of any one marr(y)ing for riches_ so mean. I would sooner live in snake than to marry a woman for money.

If I find a true and honest hearted lady and I sincerely love her. I shall marry if I can. and if she has plenty no disadvantage whatsoever. _?_ another splendid form and put in _?_. was out to see Miss nealie very nice time. talked over things in general and love matters and returned about 10. My trunk is now packed for a trip to Philadelphia tomorrow. David H. _?_ $3.00. This day one year ago I lost $25.00 AS it’s near 12 I go. I’ve talked of A + B’s disposition. A has a sweet disposition always manifests the same kindness. I have made all necessary preparations for a visit to Philadelphia tomorrow. Is a rainy night.

And what is friendship but a name
A charm that lulls to sleep
A shade that follow wealth or fame
And leaves the wretch to weep.13

Saturday December 17th 1853

Left Carlisle at 10 oclock for Philadelphia, Mrs. Allen Desires me to see her safe to her son’s house. No 90 9th14 _?_ . tave to phi @3.35. Rained Excessively fast all day. $5 of ave. At Harrisbur took dinner and had a splendid time. Mr. _?_ was very kind in loaning me 10$ - in exchange left it. At 2 oclock arrive at Lancaster about 4 one mile further the train was letained from 4 to 7. The engine of the burden ran off the track and busted things in a grand style. The cars were jammed and smashed in a most horrable manner. the hand worked diligently in the rain but they- succeed in get the engine out of our way. During the time we were detained the passengers manifested much impatience. I _?_ _?_ in different ways. About 8 as we were passing a train of cars and while the cars were moving very rapidly some person15 jumped off the train, and I should say might as well be killed15 as he was smashed to a cake of blood . I jumped off the train as soon as it ran back to him and looked at him. At 12, we arrived at Philadelphia. a hack conveyed us to Williams. $1.00. Was introduced to Mrs. William Allen. They are indeed kind people. They also live in a splendid and magnificent manner. Fine house, every comfort imaginable . wealthy. At 2 I retired- not feeling well. I drank a few swallows, supper. Etc. bought segars from C+I. I felt as if I be happy whiest _?_ if Annie was along – her face like _?_ comes-

I have16 seen a well executed and certainly very enabling display in _?_ place.

Sunday December 18th 1853
Dressed myself about 9. _?_ took breakfast about 10,,oclock. After which William and I worked around to view some parts of Philadelphia. was introduced to several men_ and after we returned Mr. William Allen presented me with a beautiful pen knife and gold pen and pencil. _?_ with a put money. They have plenty of _?_. _?_ _?_ _?_ . Talked over the news of Carlisle Dinner at 2 oclock. Fine Turkey tc. Pent the evening in the house. at 7 ½ Virginia and I went to the Presby Church. Splendid service. Smoked ½ dozen splendid segars retired at ½ past 10

Monday, December 19th 1853

Breakfast at 9. After breakfast went to the Country Commissioner’s office. After which walked along for three hours admiring the beautiful buildings and was at the Union Hotel. Jefferson College. Made enquring for N ?__. Dinner at 3. at 4 oclock Mr. William and wife + myself went to welch’s circus17. Saw a young lady walk and dance on a wire_ cup + _?_ swing, beautiful little ponies. R_?_ + _?_ I laughed until I caught a sore _?_ . At 12 I eat a small portion of Turkey. Retired at 1. I have no desire to visit any places of amusements. And would not go if it were not for Mrs. Allen –She is certainly a rue and kind wife. so affectionate. How different from Dave’s wife.- and her husband could not treat her kinder.

Was at Franklin Square a magnificent place so many_?_ .

Tuesday December 20th 1853

Was at the county commissioners office. William Allen is certainly very wealthy and making money rapidly- But they are rater extravagant. Spent some time on the street come to got at 11. Took breakfast at 9.-

Oh! Set my friendship in the wealth
Though but a bud among the flowers
Its sweetest fragrance round thee breathe
Twill serve to soothe they weary hours.
2 Every moment

I’m from thy sight the heart with my bosom
3.Mane like a tender infant in its cradle whose
nurse had left it. There’s not an hour_
of the day or dreaming but I am with thee
There’s not a wind but whispers of They name
Where ever I roam, Whatever realm to see.
My heart untraveled fondly listens to thee
They voice so sweet and to hear you laugh
Will add to the joy of your better hay
Yes. You have _?_, and you have health
And you have spirits light as in
And more than wisdom, more than wealth
A merry heart that laughs at care
Walk boldly and wisely in that light than
Hast, there is a hand about will help them
To prove and honor to your parents

“Would you both please and be interested too
Watch well the rage of shining to sabdue
Hear every man upon his favorite theme
And ever he more knowing than you seem
The lowest genius will affirm some light
Or give a hint that has escape’d your sight”

Innocence __ There is no coverage but it

No ccoustancy but in an honest cause So fare thee well- yes Farewell! There coast not teach me to forget

The Friend I Love
I love the friend whose chessing wise
Can soothe my aching heart
Can wipe the tears of grief away
When sorrow bids them start
I love the friend whose gentle hand
Removes the cup of grief
I love the friend whose hearing smiles
So like a ray of light
To cheer me on my lonely way
Though sorrow’s darksome night.

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